~Rain~moment

The rain poured heavily, I almost couldn't see where i was going...
I felt like I was beaten up 10 times, the wounds from before were opened once more and I was left to continue to walk,
I walked for a while in the rain...soon I collapse in exhaustion...
I couldn't face up to what was ahead, I needed to rely on someone...
I was no longer strong as I thought I was...I was in reality...weak...
But there was no one there...I laid there unable to stand...
Suddenly I felt something sheltering me from the rain, I looked up and saw an umbrella...
i couldn't see the face of the person holding it...I stood up and realized no one was there...
though it was an illusion created by myself, it meant that I still held hope...
I took another foot foward and continued to walk...it didn't matter how painful my wounds were...what hurt the most were the wounds of my heart...I could no longer be the proud person I once was...'I was wrong', for once I admitted I was wrong...I was still walking alone...but I guess in a way...I was no longer sad...i knew who I was...or perhaps its the fact that I no longer care...hah...

OOOookk...that was weird i know...hah* Oh well, if you took the time to wait for my blog to fully load you'll hear the opening song for Gensomaden saiyuki Reloaded-Gunlock [its in jap so i'm not racist, no one understands it hah*]the third season to the series[it never ends...i hope^^]. Too bad I can't see it...axn would proably never show it and I'm hoping it comes out on vcd or dvd, even on animax would be nice...just to inform those who don't know, Gensomaden saiyuki is an anime which follows the story of journey to the west, but in a twisted version which turns out very nice. The monk in the story is the guy with blonde hair in the pic above [dont look like right! hah] He carries a gun and miss uses it sometimes by shooting whoever makes him angry, he even smokes! However underneath all that, all the characters have lots of depth into them, each has a different dark past...which makes them who they are. [noticed that i only discribed the monk, thats because hes my fav character haha*] I'm going mad!!!^^ Oh and the pic has changed if you didn't notice, this time it's showing a full pic! unlike before! [going mad*] I was quite low today actually, but one of the songs from this anime got stuck in my head and it kinda cheer me up...it reminded me of my pride to live. I think this post should be long enough for your wait, thank-you and good night if you read this at night.[same goes for afternoon or mornings* ^^ hah*] It's fun being cazy!