Sleepy....

Sigh*, accidently laid down on the floor too hard and hit my head. Now I feel sleepy and no matter how much I sleep my brain still feels tired. I even feel like I'm now dreaming instead of being awake. I also quit playing ragnarok, it causes stress instead of release it. However I'm still continuing my story, stage 3 and 4 are up and I've edicted the first two story a bit to fit stage 4. Feeling really depressed this few days, guess I'm afraid of what is happening in my head after that accident. Maybe I'm just sleepy, but i doubt it though.

Quote~ What is a dream and what is reality?

AAaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHH! XoX!!!!!!!!!!

Sigh* As the title has already screamed for me, I will restrain from doing so here. I thought of another part of my storyline which I really wanted to add in, but it involes changing a little part of my story. Just gives me more work to do this holiday. At least I finished doing Mr chong's stupid math homework. Sigh* if I want to finish "The third wills" I need to shortern it a bit. I also need to improve on the way I write, so I would need comments on parts you didn't like. It will also be very helpful if anyone could give any tips.

Quote~ Darkness lives in every heart, even the purest heart will have a pinich of darkness. And with just that bit, the darkness can swallow the whole.

Aw man...why holidays so short..

Well as the title says...why holidays so short? Sigh* So soon and its already wednesday night, could still have that feeling that not long ago on monday went to see harry potter. Did half of my maths homework, didn't do the steps though...only wrote the answers. Ahh what the heck! Though Mr chong sure will nag at me one...sigh* The holidays are so short that I don't even have time to do stupid homework...let alone finish my story...stage 3 is only half way done. By the end of next week I must finish everything. Looks like no hope arrr! Still got the second half of maths... Last week of holidays also so much things to do...so cannot count last week as holiday...don't even have time to laze around. AAAAaaahhhHHHh! If only I had more time...my story still have to go through another 9 more stages in order to cover the hold of ragnarok. Then after that I still want to make sequal "Ragnarok~BlackDawn" Life's unfair...but it's always been this way ,no? Well, watever that happens all I can do is stand strong and brace through it!

Quote~I won't give up! What will you do if you just give up? What will you talk about if you just give up? The future of our lives are in our own hands! Destiny is ours to forge! Stand on your own stage and be who you say you are! Shout out your name proudly and open your eyes ahead! Don't give up, don't lose hope, never give in!

Stage 2 done...

Hi everyone! I finished the second part of my ragnarok story and decided to make it longer than planned. Anyway, about the bios that I promised...its going to take a while. Lots of things to work on in the holidays. Gotta train my crusader and finish the third wills of my ragnarok story and began on black dawn. Then there is the stupid maths homework...and the last week of the holidays are so packed up with stuff...that leaves me with only two weeks left...sigh* Well at least I have something to do this holiday unlike so many of the holidays I had. Feeling great this holiday, don't know why. How well smile,smile! Nothing last forever, so gotta make use of my mood,bye-bye!

Quote~ How did something so simple, turned out to be so complicated?

Mixed

A big hi to all. Today i felt really mixed on what to do, i was training my ragnarok character when i got bored of it. Then i just layed on the floor enjoying the peacefulness. Soon i felt very lazy and didn't want to do anything. After a few hours, I found my old drawing book and got the feeling to draw comics. So i decided to draw the ragnarok story i wrote. As i am very particular about my drawings, i only drew til the part where Reion was taking the test for the 2/3 job and did a double attack on his target. As i looked back on the comic i drew last year, entwined. I realized nothing much has changed except my drawing stlye. Well anyway while i was bathing, i remembered a song which i listened to long ago. It brought back lots of memories of what i wanted back then. It may have been a childish thing to want, but still it held alot of meaning to me.A life without meaning is just as good as being dead,to live just for the sake of living to me is better to be dead.There's lots of things i want to do, but lots of things are holding me back. I feel mixed...maybe all i need is a good cry.I may want to but up a bio of my story of ragnarok so people might understand the story better.And on the progress of the second part of it is now only 2/3 done. Finding it hard to get the feeling to write, so now i may just continue with my comic of my story til i find the rythem to write again.

Quote~Even though things may never be the same again, you must still stand strong. Stop dewling in the past and look to the future, instead of crying over something which has been broken, try making something new. Never give up hope, in life you have to taste the bitterness before experiencing the sweetness.

Have you ever felt so sad till your heart hurt and you could cry till you can't anymore?

Changed my template with a brighter one related to kingdom hearts. Regarding something Dw wrote on his site made me thought about what I thought of friendship. I had always felt strongly about that term. My father once told me I couldn't depend on friendship,and I disagreed with him then. I always thought that somewhere out there were friends who I could trust and rely on as they cared about me as I cared about them to even risk your own live. Then I read about what dw wrote about acceptance and I realized that the friends who I was looking for never existed. I was too demanding, wishing and hoping for such things are perhaps meaningless. However to except what I have now would be exactly what my father had told me.He was right...and I had enough of searching.Kingdom hearts represents my serach for my friends like the story so I chose this template.Even though I said I gave up, somewhere in me is still hoping and wishing.

Quote~Even reaching out to unreachable dreams have their meaning--Homura, "Saiyuki"

Ended....

Yay no more school! Dw is getting more and more irritating this days...he was at least better when he was depressed then when he is fine. Well either than that, not many problems left to solve. Gotten back our report books today as well. And I officially Won Dw in the exam results. In your face man! Got beaten by 7 or 8 people as well. Oh well at least I didn't lost that badly, only by a few percent.

Quote~Great strength can be obtain in the darkness, but only true strength can be grain in the light.

Last day...

aaahhh,...tomorrows the last day of school.[I think...]And we get our report books back tomorrow[YAY feels so happy,finally have prove of my results] tomorrow will be the day!Filled with so much hope and homework...[hah] I did well in my exams so am pretty anixous to get my report book back. Didn't tell my parents about my results cause teacher didn't give back the papers...sigh, so no prove. At least I still win shao ming...but not confirm till see report book. Stupid house pratice tomorrow also, forgot what house i was in...sigh...my weird life of ups and downs. Anyway, tomorrows the so called last day, last rythem of chaos.The second part of my story coming soon if anyones interested.

Quote~Believe in your own true strength, believe in your own ability,...speak with a voice you can be proud of, write with words you can be proud of...to overcome all!

Ragnarok~The third wills

Got new links to websites, one of them is where i put up my ragnarok story.A big thx to Dw for telling me how to put the links[claps for him] Plz give your comments at the tag-boards provided at both sites.The link to the website is at the bottom of the page with the new tagboard.

Quote~To win then, I must do the impossible!--Withe Hikari

Self....

Well, another post in my free time. Things are turning out fine and good even! I scored quite well in my tests,[except mother tongue >.<] in the end i beat my so called exam rival by 2-1 percent. However I still can't find peace, proably because of the lame post exam activites and have to run very stupid morning. Oh well, at least it would all be over in a week. Now i just have to wait....
Have a weird wanting to meet a girl who could smile foolishly for no good reason just to make me smile as well.[Hah! as if that would ever happen]

Quote~ Maybe somethings are just that smiple. However, it would be nice to see your smile again...and mine.

Feelings?

Well as this is my first post I really don't know what to do [laughs at myself thinking why did you creat this blog?] I actually didn't want to start one but due to feelings[missing primary school days where got crushes but now no more] I felt when I woke up from bed this morning,here I am.I still don't know how those feelings got me to create a blog...it has nothing to do we blogs!!! [>.<]

As this isn't a website about anything and how in the world do you change to a better template then the ones they offer...I would proably just be talking to the computer.Anyway exams are over and I should have more spare time to draw now so expect err aahhh!! and I'm still not good enough!!or you will see me looking for the first page of the prologue of my manga...[sigh* where the hell I put it!!]

So now i'm going to end this post with a part of a song from heartlanders:
"When you think too much, when you want too much, in the end yet you fear to touch, when it all comes down and there's no way left, there's no way out but just reality..."
[This song was stuck in my head during exams so hopefully it would get stuck in your heads as well muhahahahh {just kinding}]