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Yo people! Just went to make new specs today, gonna have brimless ones. ^^ But gotta wait for a week...tomorrow is my birthday usually a bad omen because exams are near. However this year exams are about more then a week away, so can enjoy!!! Planned stuff to occupy myself, so tomorrow should be great if nothing bad happens. Besides that, I'm going linkin park crazy!!!hah* "i put my trust in you, push as far as i could go, follow this,there's only one thing you should know, I PUT MY TRUST IN YOU, PUSH AS FAR AS I COULD GO, FOLLOW THIS, THERE'S ONLY ONE THING YOU SHOULD KNOW...i tired so hard and got so far, but in the end it doesn't even matters, i had too far too lose it all...but in the end, it doesn't even matterr!!!''

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Was in a really bad mood today...kinda insulted miss shela[spelled wrongly] I was the one who said "Whats there to write about when you have only live 13 years of your life?" I was refering it to myself...and she heard it...sigh*... my fault once more...everything is my fault. The reason why I was in a bad mood today was really because I kinda have an emotional break down these few days...going crazy at one moment, and extremely pissed off at another. Sigh*

Other then that, i got this funny idea of a storyline. It takes place in our future, about 10 years later where we all have grown up. Human technolorgy has made a break through in the past few years. Almost everything has gone towards science, literature and other stuff has been lost. China has succesfully tied with america as the world leading power. Singapore on the other hand has fallen into corruption. Guns were avaliable just about anywhere. Things has fallen into chaos. However the centre part of the country still prospered. It was now researching genetic human engenering, they research the cells of the human body and how they work. Their aim, was to create super-humans also know as the unpure. They changed the dna structure of humans, giving them special ablities. Other then that, they have created a new type of weapon and machinary. They were mechs/robots which can only be plioted by the New-types as it sends real time battle data to the human brain. Thus the boundries of plioting were broken for the scientists to build machines with incredible ablities without worrying about how the pliot can pliot it.  With all of this, singapore wanted to declaer war on nearby countries first, and soon the entire world. Thus creating another world war. The characters? that would be us! hah* It would be fun though...

Quote~ Sorry...for everything... / why do you sigh* so much? answer? cause I like to breathe!

~Rain~moment

The rain poured heavily, I almost couldn't see where i was going...
I felt like I was beaten up 10 times, the wounds from before were opened once more and I was left to continue to walk,
I walked for a while in the rain...soon I collapse in exhaustion...
I couldn't face up to what was ahead, I needed to rely on someone...
I was no longer strong as I thought I was...I was in reality...weak...
But there was no one there...I laid there unable to stand...
Suddenly I felt something sheltering me from the rain, I looked up and saw an umbrella...
i couldn't see the face of the person holding it...I stood up and realized no one was there...
though it was an illusion created by myself, it meant that I still held hope...
I took another foot foward and continued to walk...it didn't matter how painful my wounds were...what hurt the most were the wounds of my heart...I could no longer be the proud person I once was...'I was wrong', for once I admitted I was wrong...I was still walking alone...but I guess in a way...I was no longer sad...i knew who I was...or perhaps its the fact that I no longer care...hah...

OOOookk...that was weird i know...hah* Oh well, if you took the time to wait for my blog to fully load you'll hear the opening song for Gensomaden saiyuki Reloaded-Gunlock [its in jap so i'm not racist, no one understands it hah*]the third season to the series[it never ends...i hope^^]. Too bad I can't see it...axn would proably never show it and I'm hoping it comes out on vcd or dvd, even on animax would be nice...just to inform those who don't know, Gensomaden saiyuki is an anime which follows the story of journey to the west, but in a twisted version which turns out very nice. The monk in the story is the guy with blonde hair in the pic above [dont look like right! hah] He carries a gun and miss uses it sometimes by shooting whoever makes him angry, he even smokes! However underneath all that, all the characters have lots of depth into them, each has a different dark past...which makes them who they are. [noticed that i only discribed the monk, thats because hes my fav character haha*] I'm going mad!!!^^ Oh and the pic has changed if you didn't notice, this time it's showing a full pic! unlike before! [going mad*] I was quite low today actually, but one of the songs from this anime got stuck in my head and it kinda cheer me up...it reminded me of my pride to live. I think this post should be long enough for your wait, thank-you and good night if you read this at night.[same goes for afternoon or mornings* ^^ hah*] It's fun being cazy!

Aiyo....omg!

Sigh* having my own problems these few days so didn't blog...today i finally found the mood to blog. My birthday is coming soon...and that means exams coming!!!!!! AAAaaaahhhh!!!!!!!! Thats why I never liked my birthday...hah* oh well...I'm always this unlucky, might as well get use to it...i must stay strong to live on! No matter what happens I won't back down...i don't want to run away anymore...sigh*

Question~ What kinda response is "oh ok..." when you tell someone you like her...hah*

Mixed mood...

Hello! changed my blog skin for some reason again, [accidentaly pressed saved for something i didn't want, so went to use another one.] The picture is too big and cuts off at the name...no tilte some more, but I'm too busy/lazy too find another one. So for now I'm sticking to this one.
Lots of things happened this week, not going to talk about them! hehe^^ so don't blame me for wasting your time!
The final stage of my story is up, stage 7~Last meeting, goodbye... hope left enough suspense there...oh well. The tagboard is back up as well. Hhmm lets see now...argh i think i'll just stop here.
 
Quote~  Stop dwelling in the past! The future is ahead of us, not behind! Grow stronger from that experience, not weaker...obstacles come to us almost everyday, we must learn to embrace them. Have the courage to do what you want to do, otherwise you'll be living only a shell of your life! `~zmSuiku       [yes its no longer Rumora suiku, but zmSuiku to signify my own name as well. Thanks to blogger for creating this system, now my quotes look different from the normal text! ]

Can't help but feel tired....

went to play soccer today, now very tired...thought of something weird today, I was thinking about home econ and cooking. I came to the idea of taking a piece of bread, place a piece of cheese on top, followed by lots of pepper and finaly with cooked instant noodles. Then you twist it and use strings to tie both ends. Then you cook it in the oven. If it works out fine, then you'll have toasted bread ,melted cheese and noodles together! hah* wonder how it taste like....laughs*

Quote~ Your feelings made me stronger, but now I can't help it but feel that I'm left with nothing...my heart is growing weaker, and so is my body...I can't go on like this...I need my own path, I need my own strength...one I can be proud of! My heart hurts just thinking of you...i don't know anymore...what road to walk on?

Hmmm, hor, hor hor

Just blogging for fun again, tired ahh this few days...so don't expect stage 7 anytime soon. Planned the story a bit and i can say that it won't be an happy ending. Sigh* nothing more to say....

Quote~ In this world where life can be so tough,
you must be strong,
just believe in yourself, oh don't you fear now...
so open up your mind, and close your eyes...
then something something something ...[ forgot the lyrics haha*]

Changed skin!

Changed skin as fiqulty requested, i think it looks better...at least i think...its title is I need slience! kinda what I need when the class is so noisy. Today class matchmake err I mean chose class commitee. The three SH s were chosen followed by a thomas. Too bad shao ming didn't get pick...[juz kidding] luckily no one nominate me, muhahahahahahahahahahaahhaahahahahahahahahahahwwwaaaaaaaaa...so sad that feel like crying well actually is not sad...it's confused. Lots of things bugging me lately, then stupid chong talk about our future studies...I wanna be a mangakan! which means jap comic drawer! [not cupboard one!] so what course i need to take????? aaarrgghh!!!!!

Quote~Sometimes I cry so hard til my hearts hurts.....

Finally got the will to blog!

OOoo i love this midi! Makes me think of so many stuff, good and bad...anyway, its an actual midi from kingdom hearts [hah finally got one that works!] Well, it only works if you have anything to think about. However it only works for the first few times only, after that it is just as good as an anoying sound [laughs at myself* Why u put it up then!!]

Sometimes...I feel that I'm the only one, others can't see what i see. Something so simple, yet so beautiful. I'm but just a dreamer, I guess...thats why i see things differently...there was a time, when i wished for someone to be by me. To see the visions i see, to feel what i feel...but I guess for me, in the end it always turns out to be a dream. Nothing matters as long as it doesn't concern me...I live for my dreams, but that may be my downfor. What do people live for anyway? If they can't chase their dreams...then WHATS THE POINT OF LIVING! I can't deny the truth, but I can always dream to make things better...but because of this...I may forever walk alone. However i don't want to! I wish to walk with everyone else, but i can't stop dreaming as well...it may seem as a silly problem but as i said before I live for my dreams...I want to wake up, but I don't dare to...or perhaps I like living in dreams...the call for reality never ends as well. I once wish for something dear to me, it was on my birthday...though till now it hasn't been granted...that's why I don't like celebrating birthdays...it has no point...I see people who chase after their dreams and either suceed or failed. I dare not go the distance, at least not yet...not til I've become stronger...not til I know I won't fail. Everyone has to take a risk at some point of their lives...otherwise, everything will remain the same...even reaching for unreachble dreams have their own meaning, it proves that your living your life.

~Rumora suiku, my other self as i dream...[Dreamer]

SEE! the music made me write that !!!! hah....Well anyway, stage 6 is finish and it ends with a to be continued.

Quote~Even reaching for unreachable dreams have their meaning, it proves your living your life as you...[can't stop typing that!:P]

What the hell!???

The title is just for show, just to let ya know. I'm blogging today cause I was disconnected from RO. Lets see now...today...something something...errr...guess the title does fit with this[laughs* :P] Nothing much happened today...still thinking of wad to write...hmmm.
Arr, I'll just say some stuff then. Today I arm wrestled jeremey and won. He then said, I lost with honor and you won with disgrace! Then I asked him wad I did to win with disgrace, he just said "errr nothing! haahh!" Then errr ya I just agrreed to help make a magazine [see tagboard] well kinda anyway. Still don't know what to do. Gotta plan it with everyone.

Quote~Death comes to all! However who are you? It's like I know you really well, but yet I don't know who you are, for that matter who am I? Oh I see! You are my other self...

Happy ah!

Today was the last day of the rehersal, so happy that no more needing to do that!!! However it did take up my saturday, sigh* Still got lots to do this week, tomorrow going to see spiderman 2. Then need to do review of it for the magazine. Come to think of it, doing a magazine ain't a bad idea, if you are doing it for yourself that is... maybe we should do one for the class...then again, who got so much time to spare? Anyway, wad more is there to say? Hhhmm...everyone should know what happened today so I'll stop here.

Quote~Huh? Huh? Huh?, oh huh? ok now I get it. Just one more time! HUH????

{Bio} half done!

The Bios is half done and online! Go to my links and you should see the link.

No reason........

Just blogged cause I needed a break. Arr, today started out very nicely, though the fact I couldn't get up from sleeping. Went to run in the morning and saw a spectacular sight, if you look to the direction of a nearby hill from our school this morning, you would have seen that hill being covered in the darkness. Dark clouds were above it and was heading to our school. You could see that half the sky was black and the other a morning sky[blue color]. Then I ran a few rounds around the school and realized the dark clouds had already covered our school. So windy man, so nice to see dark clouds over your head...i guess thats why I prefer a rainy day than a sunny one. Then the rest of the day I felt so sleepy, like i got not enough sleep like that...now still sleepy... Well anyway, my ragnarok story would soon come to a close if I had the time to write it!!!!????""""'''''}}}}<<<
Remark/question~Does anyone even read till stage 5??? if so thank you very much and plz tag on the tagboard so I know how many.

WWAaaa!!!!!!!!!!!

Hhhmm lets see now, schoollss toommorrrooww!!!!!!! Sigh* going back to our old hateful lifestyles. So much negative response to this...must look at bright side!!!Arrrgghh!! give up. There is no bright side to going to school, it even causes sleep problems Hah*. Well anyway, few days ago I was really board thus I turned on the radio. And I caught on a song called "Fly away", it was a chinese song. I thought it was good, so I went to the internet to do research on it. Results were the song was from a band called F.I.R Fairyland in reality. So today I was board once more and went to pukit panjang plaza for a walk, I decided to enter a music cd shop and found the band's album so I bought it. [got nothing better to do with my allowance*]

Quote~ I....In this world there is only man I believe in...and that man is myself. This is the path I've chosen and the path I believe in...From the day I was born...until the day I die...I fight for no one but myself---Gensomaden Saiyuki:RELOADED[Manga version]~"RUN"

AHhh! It just keeps coming!

It has been one thing after another for me, sigh* life's tough. However I wouldn't want it any other way! I'm beganing to enjoy the simple things of life, even an arguement. Today went to the second SYF rehersal this week, aarrghh was very boring doing does stupid turning of cards. However I did had some fun *debating* with jeremey on ragnarok, had some real good laughs in the conversation. Sigh* tomorrow need to go to school to run again...then 1pm need go IT.

In the night on the full moon,
i walk alone thinking about stuff.
Never did i knew that i was starting to change,
From the hating that the world would just die,
to enjoying every bit i can.
Darkness which shrouds ones mind,
the past which makes everyone who they are.
I am who I am,
I am who I chose to be.
My life my way,
destiny, fate,
are just words which represents the term cause and effect.
To stand up tall and shout my name out proudly,
I am, Rumora Suiku!
~~~~by me.

Yay song playing! [I hope it does for the rest of the computers out there]

Added a song to my template. Its the ending song for kingdom hearts, and perhaps even the only song.[ It's a game, not a disney movie] If there's anything wrong please inform me. Oh and one more thing, the song replays over and over again so if you don't one to hear it you can err...never thought of that...[sweatdrops*] ah! you can turn off your speakers! or just don't come to my site anymore...[hopefully not!]

Quote~ Please rain! Pleasseee! Sigh* [tries rain dance!XD*]

Stage 5~Cold truth=heartbroken

Hahah I'm cheating, doing double posting. Anyway, I'm here just to report that stage 5 is done and up. Go check it out if your free. Stage 6 or 7 would be the end of Ragnarok~The third wills and the back story of black dawn. Guess if your here for entertainment I only got my story. Hhhmm what more can I do...? Maybe an intereactive story?[aarrgh why do i only think of stories! hhmm maybe a comic competition but how to put up...aarrgghh thinking of more stupid ideas!] Holidays coming to an end...sigh* can't stop thinking about it. Though a blog is for people's thoughts, some try to add in entertainment. Comon give me comments about my story or any ideas, so far not one person suggested anything...if you don't want to use the tagboard you can email me, zmsuikusg@hotmail.com .Wait what am I doing! not many people come to my blog, so why would they care? AArrggh! Silly boy!

Quote~We all have our own paths to walk, we can't stop others from chosing the path they want to take. We don't know what is at the end of it or what we will be seeing, but no matter what you see in front you must always remember what happen behind.

Ooo, aarrr......ouch!

Just came back from morning trim and fit, aarr so long did run...now leg pain. Tomorrow must go some stupid flash card display training. Thursday also must go...every morning also need to wake up early...sigh* This last week is just a week to get us used to going to school again. Hmm thinking of new wardrobe [haha] hhmm...black shirt, black long pants and a red suit like jacket...[surely stick out like a sore thumb! XD]

Quote~You must fight against yourself...[i think it means self control] --gensomaden saiyuki-song: Tightrope.

Errr.......

Errrr no I've not become dumb, just that for the past few days I felt like wanting to blog and yet when i wanted to...i got nothing to say. Guess I'm too used to talking in my head then here, I kept thinking of lots of things...don't know why...hmmm. Feeling sleepy again...sigh* No mood to say anything else so byebyee.

Quote~Errr.....just errr lar...

OooO

HihihihihihiHi! feeling better today, well at least a bit better. Collin's blog has been set up, but it aint exactly a pretty sight/site. It'll get better, just takes time. Went to see a doctor about the knock on my head and i'm feeling sleepy because my brain's been shaken, so i'll need to sleep more. If I show signs of vomiting or headaches then i may have a big problem on my hands. Well anyway i need comments on how to improve my story so cridicts, dont hold anything back. Holidays are starting to get boring and they are ending as well. Boardem as i'm not use to quiting ragnarok online...sigh*

Quote~ Everthing which has a begining, has an end---The matrix