English Translation

No matter what the time
I`m just alone
Destiny forgotten,
Even though I kept going.
Inside of the sudden light I awaken
In the middle of the night

Quietly,
Stand in the exit way,
And, in the pitch-black, take the light

And about the recent promises,
Is it just that I`m so anxious?
A wish that`s wanting to be said, but shall be repressed
I`ll introduce my family,
You`ll surely get along well

No matter what the time
We'll always be together
No matter what the time
Because you`re by my side
The light known as "you" finds me,
In the middle of the night

Enter a noisy street
And put on the mask of destiny.

Thinking too much about the future.
Stopping things that have no meaning.
Today I`ll eat delicious things.
The future is always before us,
Even I don`t know it.

It`s not necessary to go right to the end,
Just keep going.
It`s okay if the scenes
Go on one by one.
The light known as "you"
reflects my scenario

Let`s talk more,
And about the tomorrow that`s before your very eyes.
Turn off the television,
And look only at me.

No matter how well we`re doing,
I don`t believe in us completely.
But at those sort of times,
Because you`re by my side,
The light known as "you" finds me,
In the middle of the night.

Let`s talk more,
And about the tomorrow that`s before your very eyes.
Turn off the television,
And look only at me.

Yo poeple!!!!!!!!! My glory of triumph arrived today, muhahah!!! it started out as a very bad day, and ended so nicely. Debate tomorrow will proably kill me...my group didn't prepare at all. [Guess who the three stoogers are] I did a little reserach and gave up half way, no point doing it on my own...

~Hope is all we can rely on in our darkest times, so try not to lose it K ? ^^ ~

Yo people! Most of the exam results are back...depressed state because of them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I keep losing to Dw by a few freaking marks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All hope lies on the history paper...oh well...didn't really study that hard this time, even went to played finalfantasy X ^^. In a sense, I don't really deserve to win, but it is very anoying to lose...natural reaction for me is get depressed, so here I am pasting the time by talking crap here. oh well, i got over it soon enough and now worried about some other stuff....,....[trying to find time to write, until then dun feel like doing anything else, [[wad the hell am i saying???]] ]

~No matter how hard you fall, no matter how strong your sorrow is, you must find a way to stand back up strong and face reality...~ by Suiku

~The more important it is, the deeper you keep it in your heart until eventually you forget it. That includes yourself, you will lose the light in the dark and even forget what you lost.~ ???

Halo people! Exams are over and eermmm no more studying! Well, I've seem to have lost myself these few days...no longer know who I am or how I'm supose to be...sigh* a little love sick as well...it's all proably juz a phrase I'm going through. Oh well, on another note I've changed the pic above again, can't seem to stick with anything [hah*] Suddenly have nothing to talk about liao...

"Who are you?"
"The darkness...it's returning..."
"I must find him..."
"What! Your looking for him as well?"
"Vengence shall be mine!"
"I can't give up now...I won't let myself!"
"It's you..."
"Let it go...everything is behind us now...I want to forget."
"You know I can't!...my feelings for you were true, I don't want to forget them!"
"Why did you call us?"
"It's been a long time hasn't it?"
"The empire..."
"Father!...eh..eeaaahhh!!!!!!!"
"I guess this is it then, lets go all the way!"
"Sometimes, even though we know it's wrong...we can't help it but do it..."
"No! You might very well lose your mind..."
"You are linked to the darkness..."
"But how?..."
"Remember, you shall be the one who opens the door to the darkness."
"Could it be?...the same door?"
~Ragnarok/Crisis Revial__________________________________________________________

Yo people! Up there is random quotes on my continous story of ragnarok. Well the exams are coming to the end and tomorrow is home economics, no more mood to study anymore...tired sleepy...but in a good mood a bit. Scored a 78 for chinese!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Mircale had happen!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hah!!! Same score as Dw!!!! Well looking forward to playing basketball again tomorrow, I think i put on weight during the exams ....XP Going to have time to do stuff again, still planing my story though...almost evrything is there now all thats left is the connecting parts and ending. Hehe I decided to add in the characters of the people in our class who plays ragnarok! But some of them the names so funny...haha oh well, I'l proably think of something soon enough. Oh and another thing that has change is the pic on top as well. It's the chibi version of gensomaden saiyuki!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Going to sleep now, good night....

Yo people! having fun studying? Well, for me all I can say is that my head hurts!!! I'm kinda learning it not revising...I didn't go and study them in the first place XP hah! everything all last minute one!!! Anyway, went to take the same quiz on Razia 's site "How to make a you?" My results is on the left of the page, the only part that I found weird was..."3 parts beauty???" its insulting yet eerr i dunno!!!??? XP!!!! For the rest, I agree with them all! competive, amibitous, and yes! sad!!!!!! Well, not much to talk about besides my headache...so study people! But don't over do it!!! Or you'll end up like me!!! [with a headache!!!!!]

Quote~ Take my hand, and I'll show you a world that you never knew...though you once broke my heart, i still couldn't forget you...I liked your smile...as it made me smile as well...

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Hello there again, trying to relax my brain from studying chinese [its torture man! can't get it right!!!] other then that, I'm finding that I may not have enough time to study all the subjects...man...my head has reached a very hard limit with chinese...stupid chinese!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its the cause of the darkness...the root of evil!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!everything that went wrong was because of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sigh* usually when i study i need a strong sense of motivation...however this time i can't find one!!!!!!!!! I need to break the limit! I musn't submit! no...i'm slipping its too late...the great Suiku has fallen...in it's place is the darkness which surrounds him...i need a light to grab on...but there is none, i know i can only count on myself this time...may my will and heart be my guide out of the darkness...........no...I won't, i don't want to do it for anyone else...for myself then...i guess this is the way i must go...

Quote~ Inner turmoil is painful...very painful...til even tears will fall from your eyes... [will some kind soul tell me wad chapters to study for geography and maths!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]

[Like the new midi? Anyway, I'm sticking to midis from now on, mp3s take too long to load!]

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halo once more, today was such a busy day...even so I came up with an idea for my storyline for ''CrisisRevial'' The first half should focus on a monk named Alrikern Luvana, it will also concentrate on the idea of a kingdom/concept of a king and rebelion. The other part would be where the MVPs attacks the cities. And the focus turns to the third wills once more. I'm not revealing anything in detail, otherwise the story would be a boring read no? Anyway, things are still in a blur. Ah yes one more thing, I'm going to include the third jobs as the elite under the king. [for those who don't know, the job classes are in the order of 1/1 , 2/1, 2/2, " 2/3"-made up" and the lastest one in the original game, 3/3.] If you have any ideas they are warmly welcomed.
Quote~Sometimes, you have to let things go before anything can get better...try to lighten up and no sink in depression...K?

Signing out~Rumora suiku

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Yo, people. Long time no blog! Yesterday got caught by police for playing football under void deck...the policeman was the same guy who came to our school to give a talk on gangsterism! The anoying guy...I could have run actually...i saw them coming first sia...sigh* He at first gave us 3 choices, first was to clean up the wall with our shirts though the fact that our ball was like so bloody clean...second was to call our parents and buy new paint to paint the wall, third was too bring us to their police headquarters and arr i dunno lar...ai wait! got fourth one! it was that they go tell our school...they made us write down our names and IC numbers, and in the end they made the choice for us sia...they would report us to the school and then the school would instruct us to clean the wall, then i our [beta] thingy would have the offense...sigh* why so unlucky sia...that morning got the small simple thought that the day would be a bad one...in the end really happen...so stupid! Sigh* but in the i guess all i can say is that, life goes on...no matter what happens, so matter how you feel, what you think,what you do...as long as your still breathing, it will go on...so all i can do is embrace it and make the best of the situation.

Quote~ So life goes on huh...

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Yo people! Just went to make new specs today, gonna have brimless ones. ^^ But gotta wait for a week...tomorrow is my birthday usually a bad omen because exams are near. However this year exams are about more then a week away, so can enjoy!!! Planned stuff to occupy myself, so tomorrow should be great if nothing bad happens. Besides that, I'm going linkin park crazy!!!hah* "i put my trust in you, push as far as i could go, follow this,there's only one thing you should know, I PUT MY TRUST IN YOU, PUSH AS FAR AS I COULD GO, FOLLOW THIS, THERE'S ONLY ONE THING YOU SHOULD KNOW...i tired so hard and got so far, but in the end it doesn't even matters, i had too far too lose it all...but in the end, it doesn't even matterr!!!''

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Was in a really bad mood today...kinda insulted miss shela[spelled wrongly] I was the one who said "Whats there to write about when you have only live 13 years of your life?" I was refering it to myself...and she heard it...sigh*... my fault once more...everything is my fault. The reason why I was in a bad mood today was really because I kinda have an emotional break down these few days...going crazy at one moment, and extremely pissed off at another. Sigh*

Other then that, i got this funny idea of a storyline. It takes place in our future, about 10 years later where we all have grown up. Human technolorgy has made a break through in the past few years. Almost everything has gone towards science, literature and other stuff has been lost. China has succesfully tied with america as the world leading power. Singapore on the other hand has fallen into corruption. Guns were avaliable just about anywhere. Things has fallen into chaos. However the centre part of the country still prospered. It was now researching genetic human engenering, they research the cells of the human body and how they work. Their aim, was to create super-humans also know as the unpure. They changed the dna structure of humans, giving them special ablities. Other then that, they have created a new type of weapon and machinary. They were mechs/robots which can only be plioted by the New-types as it sends real time battle data to the human brain. Thus the boundries of plioting were broken for the scientists to build machines with incredible ablities without worrying about how the pliot can pliot it.  With all of this, singapore wanted to declaer war on nearby countries first, and soon the entire world. Thus creating another world war. The characters? that would be us! hah* It would be fun though...

Quote~ Sorry...for everything... / why do you sigh* so much? answer? cause I like to breathe!

~Rain~moment

The rain poured heavily, I almost couldn't see where i was going...
I felt like I was beaten up 10 times, the wounds from before were opened once more and I was left to continue to walk,
I walked for a while in the rain...soon I collapse in exhaustion...
I couldn't face up to what was ahead, I needed to rely on someone...
I was no longer strong as I thought I was...I was in reality...weak...
But there was no one there...I laid there unable to stand...
Suddenly I felt something sheltering me from the rain, I looked up and saw an umbrella...
i couldn't see the face of the person holding it...I stood up and realized no one was there...
though it was an illusion created by myself, it meant that I still held hope...
I took another foot foward and continued to walk...it didn't matter how painful my wounds were...what hurt the most were the wounds of my heart...I could no longer be the proud person I once was...'I was wrong', for once I admitted I was wrong...I was still walking alone...but I guess in a way...I was no longer sad...i knew who I was...or perhaps its the fact that I no longer care...hah...

OOOookk...that was weird i know...hah* Oh well, if you took the time to wait for my blog to fully load you'll hear the opening song for Gensomaden saiyuki Reloaded-Gunlock [its in jap so i'm not racist, no one understands it hah*]the third season to the series[it never ends...i hope^^]. Too bad I can't see it...axn would proably never show it and I'm hoping it comes out on vcd or dvd, even on animax would be nice...just to inform those who don't know, Gensomaden saiyuki is an anime which follows the story of journey to the west, but in a twisted version which turns out very nice. The monk in the story is the guy with blonde hair in the pic above [dont look like right! hah] He carries a gun and miss uses it sometimes by shooting whoever makes him angry, he even smokes! However underneath all that, all the characters have lots of depth into them, each has a different dark past...which makes them who they are. [noticed that i only discribed the monk, thats because hes my fav character haha*] I'm going mad!!!^^ Oh and the pic has changed if you didn't notice, this time it's showing a full pic! unlike before! [going mad*] I was quite low today actually, but one of the songs from this anime got stuck in my head and it kinda cheer me up...it reminded me of my pride to live. I think this post should be long enough for your wait, thank-you and good night if you read this at night.[same goes for afternoon or mornings* ^^ hah*] It's fun being cazy!

Aiyo....omg!

Sigh* having my own problems these few days so didn't blog...today i finally found the mood to blog. My birthday is coming soon...and that means exams coming!!!!!! AAAaaaahhhh!!!!!!!! Thats why I never liked my birthday...hah* oh well...I'm always this unlucky, might as well get use to it...i must stay strong to live on! No matter what happens I won't back down...i don't want to run away anymore...sigh*

Question~ What kinda response is "oh ok..." when you tell someone you like her...hah*

Mixed mood...

Hello! changed my blog skin for some reason again, [accidentaly pressed saved for something i didn't want, so went to use another one.] The picture is too big and cuts off at the name...no tilte some more, but I'm too busy/lazy too find another one. So for now I'm sticking to this one.
Lots of things happened this week, not going to talk about them! hehe^^ so don't blame me for wasting your time!
The final stage of my story is up, stage 7~Last meeting, goodbye... hope left enough suspense there...oh well. The tagboard is back up as well. Hhmm lets see now...argh i think i'll just stop here.
 
Quote~  Stop dwelling in the past! The future is ahead of us, not behind! Grow stronger from that experience, not weaker...obstacles come to us almost everyday, we must learn to embrace them. Have the courage to do what you want to do, otherwise you'll be living only a shell of your life! `~zmSuiku       [yes its no longer Rumora suiku, but zmSuiku to signify my own name as well. Thanks to blogger for creating this system, now my quotes look different from the normal text! ]

Can't help but feel tired....

went to play soccer today, now very tired...thought of something weird today, I was thinking about home econ and cooking. I came to the idea of taking a piece of bread, place a piece of cheese on top, followed by lots of pepper and finaly with cooked instant noodles. Then you twist it and use strings to tie both ends. Then you cook it in the oven. If it works out fine, then you'll have toasted bread ,melted cheese and noodles together! hah* wonder how it taste like....laughs*

Quote~ Your feelings made me stronger, but now I can't help it but feel that I'm left with nothing...my heart is growing weaker, and so is my body...I can't go on like this...I need my own path, I need my own strength...one I can be proud of! My heart hurts just thinking of you...i don't know anymore...what road to walk on?

Hmmm, hor, hor hor

Just blogging for fun again, tired ahh this few days...so don't expect stage 7 anytime soon. Planned the story a bit and i can say that it won't be an happy ending. Sigh* nothing more to say....

Quote~ In this world where life can be so tough,
you must be strong,
just believe in yourself, oh don't you fear now...
so open up your mind, and close your eyes...
then something something something ...[ forgot the lyrics haha*]

Changed skin!

Changed skin as fiqulty requested, i think it looks better...at least i think...its title is I need slience! kinda what I need when the class is so noisy. Today class matchmake err I mean chose class commitee. The three SH s were chosen followed by a thomas. Too bad shao ming didn't get pick...[juz kidding] luckily no one nominate me, muhahahahahahahahahahaahhaahahahahahahahahahahwwwaaaaaaaaa...so sad that feel like crying well actually is not sad...it's confused. Lots of things bugging me lately, then stupid chong talk about our future studies...I wanna be a mangakan! which means jap comic drawer! [not cupboard one!] so what course i need to take????? aaarrgghh!!!!!

Quote~Sometimes I cry so hard til my hearts hurts.....

Finally got the will to blog!

OOoo i love this midi! Makes me think of so many stuff, good and bad...anyway, its an actual midi from kingdom hearts [hah finally got one that works!] Well, it only works if you have anything to think about. However it only works for the first few times only, after that it is just as good as an anoying sound [laughs at myself* Why u put it up then!!]

Sometimes...I feel that I'm the only one, others can't see what i see. Something so simple, yet so beautiful. I'm but just a dreamer, I guess...thats why i see things differently...there was a time, when i wished for someone to be by me. To see the visions i see, to feel what i feel...but I guess for me, in the end it always turns out to be a dream. Nothing matters as long as it doesn't concern me...I live for my dreams, but that may be my downfor. What do people live for anyway? If they can't chase their dreams...then WHATS THE POINT OF LIVING! I can't deny the truth, but I can always dream to make things better...but because of this...I may forever walk alone. However i don't want to! I wish to walk with everyone else, but i can't stop dreaming as well...it may seem as a silly problem but as i said before I live for my dreams...I want to wake up, but I don't dare to...or perhaps I like living in dreams...the call for reality never ends as well. I once wish for something dear to me, it was on my birthday...though till now it hasn't been granted...that's why I don't like celebrating birthdays...it has no point...I see people who chase after their dreams and either suceed or failed. I dare not go the distance, at least not yet...not til I've become stronger...not til I know I won't fail. Everyone has to take a risk at some point of their lives...otherwise, everything will remain the same...even reaching for unreachble dreams have their own meaning, it proves that your living your life.

~Rumora suiku, my other self as i dream...[Dreamer]

SEE! the music made me write that !!!! hah....Well anyway, stage 6 is finish and it ends with a to be continued.

Quote~Even reaching for unreachable dreams have their meaning, it proves your living your life as you...[can't stop typing that!:P]

What the hell!???

The title is just for show, just to let ya know. I'm blogging today cause I was disconnected from RO. Lets see now...today...something something...errr...guess the title does fit with this[laughs* :P] Nothing much happened today...still thinking of wad to write...hmmm.
Arr, I'll just say some stuff then. Today I arm wrestled jeremey and won. He then said, I lost with honor and you won with disgrace! Then I asked him wad I did to win with disgrace, he just said "errr nothing! haahh!" Then errr ya I just agrreed to help make a magazine [see tagboard] well kinda anyway. Still don't know what to do. Gotta plan it with everyone.

Quote~Death comes to all! However who are you? It's like I know you really well, but yet I don't know who you are, for that matter who am I? Oh I see! You are my other self...

Happy ah!

Today was the last day of the rehersal, so happy that no more needing to do that!!! However it did take up my saturday, sigh* Still got lots to do this week, tomorrow going to see spiderman 2. Then need to do review of it for the magazine. Come to think of it, doing a magazine ain't a bad idea, if you are doing it for yourself that is... maybe we should do one for the class...then again, who got so much time to spare? Anyway, wad more is there to say? Hhhmm...everyone should know what happened today so I'll stop here.

Quote~Huh? Huh? Huh?, oh huh? ok now I get it. Just one more time! HUH????