Going to go to ptc soon...for once in my life...actually worried about it sia... Cause even SH got scolding for his results...think I'm going to die... His that kind of results still cannot get into good JC...so I don't think I'm going to go anywhere far...already struggling like crazy le...till a point want heck care le...if get pushed more...think I'll break sia...

Sighs...depressing day today also... Was looking so forward to getting my hands on KH2!!!! And completing it by this week...BUT then...the uncle say next monday then come...so now totally in low spirits... Tomorrow also got bio test...no mood to study flowers...no matter how beautiful they may be...I'm just not motivated... Might heck care it also...or just study as much as I can tonight...

Less then half an hour left...where's my dad...? Did he forget??? X_x'
Just feel like running away now...yeah...that's one of my reasons why I run in the morning...I wish to run away from it all...

The world against you, and you can barely stand.
Would you turn tail and run?
Would you choose to forget the dreams you were chasing for before?
The reason you choose to stand here...
Was it for her/him?
I can hardly remember anymore...

Here to update my links actually, but then...why not blog as well? Hmm...well ptc is tomorrow, I'm sure everyone knows that by now. Haha...then again...how could anyone not? Anyways...currently watching LOST season 2 right now. And they are going into that weird hatch!!!! O.O

[Went to watch tv]

Waahh just finished a touching scene...then one very exciting one...then....then....comercial break.......................................................... ><'
Nevermind...still have another hour...
Okays...back to blogging...

Well I'm sure everyone had gotten back their CA1 results as well, did you all do well? Well the main thing is that...I was totally unsatisfied with my english marks...kept questioning if I was truly that lousy...What's worse is that Shao Hong scored 4 marks more then mi...which is ALOT!!!! Which as well equals to my so called trademark phrase this year...

"SIGHS..."

Well can't say I disagree that I use it alot this few months...but then...that's how my life has been... Just plainly disapointing.
Is it my fault?
Just what did I do to be fated like this?

Disapointing fate makes one sigh,
no amount of light is sufficient to brighten up one's life.
Lost and confusion is part of everyone's days.
Smiles forgotten, frowns remains...
Tell me...
How is your life?

The last time I left here feeling a strong urge to die, today I come here with a new feeling. A feeling of hopelessness...haha. Things still feel like they're falling apart...I dunno why...

Sometimes...it just seems that no matter what I do...its always going to be wrong...

Feeling sick today as well...sore throat...hopefully things will get better...hopefully...

Be strong, stay strong...~

Oh exams...oh how much I hate you...haha...

Currently taking a break [a long break] from studying. And you know what I learnt? Life SUX haha...

Okay okay...enough ranting...

Well lets see now...recently as I'm studying I tend to listen to the radio to get my mind off things...and well there was this story that really...hmm...dunno how to describe...its just a story that questions people's goal in life.

It goes something like this,

Once upon a time, there was a fisherman living on an island. Everyday he would catch some fishes, go back home. Spend the day chatting with friends and the nights on long walks on the beach with his wife. One day a young scholar came to this island on holiday. He too decided to go fishing. However no matter how hard he tried, he just could not get a good catch. While for the fisherman, even though all he had was a small net...he always came back with a good catch. One day the scholar couldn't stand it any longer, he went up to the fisherman and asked how come he could catch fish so well. The fisherman simply said that it was because he knew the area well.

The scholar then suggested he start his own fishing company, the fisherman simply replied with a question, "Then what?"

"Then you can earn enough money to expand your company. Buy more boats, hire more people." he replied.

"Then what?" the fisherman asked again.

"Then you can go to ammerica to expand your company even further! And make alot alot of money!"

"Then what?"

"Well...once you have earned money you can retire to an island. Maybe fish for fun? Chat with friends all day? Spend romantic moments with your wife during the night?"

The fisherman grinned when he heard that, and replied in a questioning tone, "Isn't that my life now?"


THE END

Sighs...was there ever a time you felt like just lying down and die? Well anyways...I've been thinking of writing a new different story...I'll post more about it when I have the chance...for now...I just feel like dying...